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I started attending church October 28, 2007 after having a lot of really bad experiences in my life.
I lost a job that I positively loved.
I found a job that I positively hated.
I had an evaluation less than thirty days from my date of hire that was the worse evaluation I ever had. I was told I lied about my qualifications, my resume was bogus, etc. I did not lied about anything.
At this point I was totally wasted. I was laying on my bed in a fetal position. I asked God to help me. I was actually told to go to church during those prayers. Now as I look back I know this was by are the most important decision I could have made. Considering my emotional state, if I had not went to church then I would have been lost - both spiritually and physically. A friend told me I was downright scary when she saw me.
A sense of peace for me slowly developed. It took a long time to develop - over months. This peace was something that was so foreign to me that I was unsure about it. I had been a person who was always in charge. I helped everyone; I did everything; I never stopped. It was extremely difficult for me to let go. I kept wanting to fix things. I still have these tendencies but am not so bad as I was 2 or more years ago. People who have known me for ages will tell me I've changed a lot. Personally, I think I have changed some but not a that much.
I became interested in prayer and meditation which has given me a lot of peace. I do use an Anglican Rosary or the Anglican Prayer beads. Without the rosary I have the attention span of a gold fish. I also started journaling which made sure I did not cheat while in prayer. Arrow prayers (short, "Thank God" or "Please God" prayers) do not work well for me. I need more in-depth prayer and meditation. I also cannot skip prayers for any length of time - a day or two at most. Some of my insights and prayers are on my spirituality page.
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